The last time I was up at such a cruel hour was when I waited overnight at Manchester Airport for a flight to Iceland. It was the same as before that…and the time before that. (Hell, EasyJet, PLEASE CHANGE YOUR GODDAMN FLIGHT TIMES. I can't while away another night in the bleakest airport ever built.)… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #13 – I Was Up At 5.30Am To Shoot My Friend
Some Good Things I Did For Myself Today Finding the right way to say everything isn't alright is hard. So I'm just going to put the first part of a message I wrote to a friend earlier today because it sort of sums up what's going on with me at this point in time: Life is… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #12 – Some Good Things I Did For Myself Today
I've been going through an existential crisis, and last week was at breaking point. After twenty-odd years of first-hand experience with mental breakdowns, I've finally, in my 36th year, come to accept when I need to say to myself, 'I'M DOING SOMETHING ABOUT THIS RIGHT FUCKING NOW.' The first thing I did was call my doctor… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #1 – Walking With A Wolfdog
"But we know, damnit all—we KNOW: our dark, the one that we are and have, is where we grow. So, as ever, root yourself, Earth-sign. Root yourself and do as things growing in the dark do. Wait—and grow immense and undeniably present in yourself." - Nafre, my friend who bleeds wisdom.
Okay then folks, here she is, Cave Mouth’s second album The Dark Has Teeth, released by Non Posse Mori Records with artwork by the astounding Asphodel Art. We’ll be putting CD’s up for sale next week along with patches! (I don’t think I’ve shown you the patches yet, have I? They’re fucking beautiful.) I’d be… Continue reading The Dark Has Teeth
I was struggling to think of what to write about today. I usually plan my blog post the night before, but last night, none of my ideas could hold their ground. (I always struggle with life on a Saturday night, knowing Sunday is mere hours away...Sunday and I have a bittersweet relationship.) It was the… Continue reading Do It Scared – Things From The Pages Of My Notebook
I was on Instagram last night when I was struck with the thought 'you need to spend some time away from this, some time away from Instagram and Facebook, some time away from social media.' I haven't been spending that much time on these platforms recently, not since deciding a few weeks ago that I… Continue reading I’m Taking A Social Media Sabbatical
So horrible was the dream I found myself in last night that when I woke up I thought to myself, 'Well, that's my day ruined. Might as well just stay here.' But I knew I'd end up stewing in my despair, and then that despair would end up bleeding into tomorrow and I'd spend tomorrow… Continue reading My Vision Wall
2020 wasn't a big reading year for me. As you might know, I spent most of it sleeping. But I did make it through the books listed below, and they're here because they gifted me with inspiration, motivation, clarity and a whole lot else besides. Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear by Elizabeth Gilbert There's… Continue reading Reading Myself Back To Life : Books I Read In 2020 (Part I)
One of the saddest things about depression is how it cunningly and cruelly siphons away passion. In 2019 I found that I was gradually losing grip on all the things that had once meant so much to me. There came a point where I found it impossible to enjoy the music and art that had,… Continue reading The Story So Far Of Battle Jacket #2
Celebrating the strange and the shadowy, the damned and unseen 