Being afraid every time I need to call my doctors surgery to make an appointment. This has been happening for some time, but it's been worsening recently. I have a few things going on health-wise (physically and mentally), so I try to stay very in tune with my body and mind. (Or so I like… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #7 – Some Things That Have Been Pissing Me Off
Tag: Anxiety
100 Days Of Blogging #1 – Walking With A Wolfdog
I've been going through an existential crisis, and last week was at breaking point. After twenty-odd years of first-hand experience with mental breakdowns, I've finally, in my 36th year, come to accept when I need to say to myself, 'I'M DOING SOMETHING ABOUT THIS RIGHT FUCKING NOW.' The first thing I did was call my doctor… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #1 – Walking With A Wolfdog
I’m Taking A Social Media Sabbatical
I was on Instagram last night when I was struck with the thought 'you need to spend some time away from this, some time away from Instagram and Facebook, some time away from social media.' I haven't been spending that much time on these platforms recently, not since deciding a few weeks ago that I… Continue reading I’m Taking A Social Media Sabbatical
Good Things That Have Happened This Week
New Boots Anyone who knows me well will know that, for the past decade, I've been wearing French Ranger boots. I've walked my way through several pairs, only getting rid when the soles have worn through. I've always bought them from the same place without a problem, but for some reason last year, I thought… Continue reading Good Things That Have Happened This Week
Mind In The Dark : Good Things That Have Happened This Weekend
One of the things that I don’t think many people know about me is that I live in a constant state of severe anxiety. It affects pretty much every moment of my waking and sleeping (yes, it gets me in my dreams too) life. The moments when I don’t feel suffocated by the pressure of… Continue reading Mind In The Dark : Good Things That Have Happened This Weekend
An Evening Walk
I had an alright day yesterday. Feels uber weird writing that. But I did. Well, until about 5pm when my mood went downhill too fast for me to try and snatch it back. I'd wanted to go for an evening walk, catch some autumn textures with my camera and watch some spiders spinning. I'd been… Continue reading An Evening Walk
Thinking In The Dark : Living With Anxiety
Anxiety and I go back a long way. A very long way. Such a long way that I struggle to actually remember a time in my life when I wasn’t anxious. When I’m not anxious though (or in a depression), I fucking radiate joy. I really do. Part of it is to do with the… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Living With Anxiety
Anxiety & Some Ways That I Cope With It
Anxiety. It is an ugly shit of a beast that I've lived with for over half of my life, and by hell, I hate it with every cell in my body. I could fill the North Sea twice over with all the tears it's had me shed. I could recall to you hundreds of times… Continue reading Anxiety & Some Ways That I Cope With It
Celebrating the strange and the shadowy, the damned and unseen 