Bloody hell. It feels strange to be blogging. I decided to start typing before my anxiety got the better of me. Folks who have been coming here for a while will know that quite a long time ago - about 18 months - I went into a depressive episode and started to lose my ability… Continue reading The Darkest Days – A Photography Project
The other day, somebody told me that I 'suck at conversation.' Despite thinking 'that's a bit rude...' I whispered to myself, 'yeah, I know.' Since this depressive episode started over a year ago, I've struggled massively to have deep, meaningful, satisfying conversations. Depression has made me dumb, uninteresting and quiet. Very, very, very quiet. Last… Continue reading I Need To Start Over
I never used to be nervous about writing a blog post. I never used to start and stall, start and stall. I never used to fret about what people might think of how I was expressing myself. But things are different now. I am nervous. I am starting and stalling. I do worry about what… Continue reading I Am In The Strangest Place
For those of you who’ve been here a while, you’ll be pretty familiar with my mental health struggles. For those of you who are visiting for perhaps the first time, I should let you know that for almost a year I’ve been submerged in a depressive episode so deep and dark that at times, I… Continue reading I’m Going To Walk North
This time last weekend, two nurses from the Crisis Team sat in my parents living room, clad head to toe in PPE. They were asking me questions about how suicidal I was feeling, and trying to dissuade me from believing that the best place for me to be was in the hospital. I smiled (sadly)… Continue reading I Don’t Know How To Talk About This But I’ll Try Anyway
The other week I was talking about how I'd said goodbye to depression and how I hoped it would be a while before we met once again. Well. I had a mere five days or so without it. In my head, I was imagining that it would be months and months until we crossed paths… Continue reading The Dark Has Teeth
Today's offering from Cave Mouth is about the legend of the Barghest. If you've been here a while, you'll know I have quite the enthusiasm for this folkloric creature. It's one the most terrifying things to hail from my home county of Yorkshire, after all. (If you're interested, there's an Art of the Barghest post… Continue reading Barghest
Here's what Cave Mouth have conjured up today... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5vY1aCLn1r4&feature=youtu.be&fbclid=IwAR2SZ8fHDyibwgDhTN7rv05Zm7zmPzMq5rNHbGdXcyxffglNfn2DBTTx8RM
After far too long a time, my band Cave Mouth is back! I really hope you'll find a few minutes to have a listen to I Follow The Wolves. It's also available to listen to on Bandcamp. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rs72-zFgaFw&fbclid=IwAR1eWxRNBQIIfma3xGNytPTMLPfvide11Ps4XF_XU94f9PFSf-6br8GBraU
Celebrating the strange and the shadowy, the damned and unseen 