I'm quietly freaking out at the moment. I'm sick, sick to death of coming to the end of each day and asking myself, 'well, what was that for?' I've reduced my sertraline over the past two weeks, and while the fog has dispersed slightly, I'm still struggling to feel, I'm struggling to create, I'm struggling… Continue reading I’m Not Ok
Today has been fraught with anxiety and a despair so deep I’m astonished that I managed to haul myself out of bed. My patience has been as thin as a new moon and I’ve been shaking for most of the past twelve hours. My chest has been so tight it's as if someone has bound… Continue reading Mind In The Dark : The Healing Wild
I have a daughter. She's nearly nine months. When she decides she wants a nap, be that at 2pm or 2am (she's not a predictable baby) I take the opportunity to make a video from one of my poems. Here are four I've made over the past four days. I'm new to this folks, so… Continue reading Four Darkly Inclined Poetry Videos
My life has always been very much interwoven with what I post here on Wyrd Words & Effigies, and it's going to become even more so as my belly swells and my little shadow becomes a bigger shadow in my womb. I wrote a poem about my ultrasound the other day. I find it easier… Continue reading There Will Be Poetry : Pinecone
Ever since I discovered out I was pregnant, I've been finding it really, really hard not to spend hours at a time browsing the astounding range of meticulously handcrafted goods available for little shadows on Etsy. Once I get started, I think of another search term, then another, then another... Sometimes I just let myself… Continue reading Special Things For Your Little Shadow
I'm currently 14 weeks pregnant with my boyfriend Hravn's baby, and today had my first ultrasound. Up until now, I haven't really been able to believe that there was anything in there, because my stomach is still relatively flat and I've had minimal morning sickness. (Guess I'm one of the really fucking lucky ones, huh?)… Continue reading I Am Going To Be A Mother
Celebrating the strange and the shadowy, the damned and unseen 