This afternoon, I started putting together a post about the mermaid from Robert Egger's masterpiece, The Lighthouse. But then I went to visit my mother, and my attention was drawn to a notebook lying around that she's had for as long as I can remember. This notebook, to be exact. She's never written in it, but I became engrossed… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #8 – The Universe Is Made Of Stories
Oh hell. This growing older thing is freaking. me. out. I was having a good day until it smacked me in the face that I'm nearly forty. And I just got really scared. But I'm not here tonight to talk about the terrible speed at which I'm approaching middle age. Who needs that on a Sunday, right?… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #6 – Bites From A Few Books
I like to make props for my photography. These self-portraits are from a couple of years ago (though just edited for the first time the other night) and feature some demonic fingers I crafted using silver foil, masking tape and black paint. These fingers were some of the first props I made and while I've… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #5 – She Creeps
I've been visiting my parents, and today, upon rummaging through one of their bookcases, I found a notebook of mine, gifted to me from them back in 2009. It's sparsely filled, predominantly because it's oddly shaped, so, awkward to write in. But also because, being a fucking massive colour snob, I snubbed it because it's… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #4 – Writing Is Why I Do My Life
1. Waking up and feeling well rested. As I've gotten older, waking up and feeling refreshed isn't the norm anymore. Quite the opposite. Most days, I wake up sweaty, more exhausted than when I went to bed and tearful thanks to dreams about my two most recent ex-partners gleefully cheating on me and getting all up… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #3 – Four Things That Brought Me Joy Today
I'm not usually one for fads, but when I caught word of the new My Heritage AI Time Machine, I couldn't pass up on it. I tried, I did, but the idea of 'seeing myself' in different historical eras eventually succeeded in seducing me during one slow-paced midweek afternoon. I hesitated for a few minutes… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #2 – I Did That My Heritage AI Time Machine Thing
I've been going through an existential crisis, and last week was at breaking point. After twenty-odd years of first-hand experience with mental breakdowns, I've finally, in my 36th year, come to accept when I need to say to myself, 'I'M DOING SOMETHING ABOUT THIS RIGHT FUCKING NOW.' The first thing I did was call my doctor… Continue reading 100 Days Of Blogging #1 – Walking With A Wolfdog
A few friends have been asking what's up recently, and giving them a concise answer has been challenging. I've mainly been replying with 'just some big life stuff.' I've been hanging on, as it were, but I didn't realise quite how deeply this 'big life stuff' has been impacting me until yesterday when I went… Continue reading What’s Up? Just Some Big Life Stuff.
I have some excellent friends. One of those friends is Rich Blackett, and though we've never met, he's done more than his fair share of cheering me up when I've felt at a loss. Rich has a talent for transforming my photos into fake cds, vinyls, tapes and movie posters and though I never know… Continue reading CDs, Vinyls, Tapes & Movie Posters That Don’t Actually Exist
My involvement in the UKBM scene has been sporadic at best over the past however many years. But it warms this tattered heart of mine to know my home county of North Yorkshire is being darkened with sell-out shows and festivals featuring some of the very best black metal offerings. It’s been a while since… Continue reading A Conversation With Reaper Agency UK About Fortress Festival
Celebrating the strange and the shadowy, the damned and unseen 