There are certain trees I find myself gravitating towards – spruce, pine, oak and birch. When I was living in Sweden, there was one silver birch in particular that I'd pass on my daily walk in the forest, and which I felt a kinship with. I’d always stop and watch it for a while. More… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Birch Trees
At the moment, simply existing is an excruciating experience. I'm trying to remind myself that this shall pass. That I'll be ok. I'll be ok. I'll be ok. I'm stronger than I think and capable of pulling myself back from the brink. I have a wolf heart. If you're finding life excruciating, hold on. There… Continue reading I Have A Wolf Heart And So Do You
It's hard to move forward right now. I think it might be the side effects of my new medication. Or it might be the weight of the past six months bearing down on me. Bringing down to the kitchen the cup of tea that I made last night and didn't drink because I was too… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : When It’s Hard To Go On
Thistles, like foxgloves, can steal me away for hours. If I’m passing by a thistle or a whole host of them, I always, always, always have to stop and drink in their presence. The prickles that we see all over the plant are for defense and protect the thistle from being eaten by most animals.… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Thistles
Everything has been too much today. I'm depressed, exhausted and all my senses are way too overloaded. Even the mumbled noise of people talking in another room is making me twitch. Saga has been screaming in my face for the past twelve hours, I can't get my stupid septum ring out of my stupid nose,… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : When Everything Is Just Too Much
It’s been raining now for six days. (Though as I type this, it’s starting to peter out and the sun is shouting 'HERE I AM!' Typical.) The grass and the flowers and the worms are loving it, and the birds are singing their hearts out until the witching hour. It’s a welcome relief from the… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Rain
Isn’t it astonishing the power trees can have over us? How they can fill us with joy, enough that we could burst, or, at the other end of the spectrum, make us feel so damn terrified that we’re hardly able to process our feelings, but know only that we need to get away from said… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Trees In Horror Movies
I have an affinity for pine trees. I always have, I always will. They're my favourite tree, followed by oak and silver birch. Ever since I was a child, pine trees have held me captivated. I grew up surrounded by evergreen forests, and when the time came that I had to leave them, it felt… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Pine Trees
There's something about the foxglove that commands my attention. It's literally impossible for me to walk past a foxglove without getting up close to it and giving it all of my attention for however long it demands it. And they deserve that attention, friends. Growing up to six feet tall, foxgloves are hardy bastards, who… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Foxgloves
Vampires. Can you remember when you got into vampires? I'm imagining that everyone has been, at one point or another, 'into' vampires. My first foray into the world of the un-dead was when I was six or seven. I was in the kid's section of our local library and found My Babysitter Is A Vampire… Continue reading Thinking In The Dark : Vampires
Celebrating the strange and the shadowy, the damned and unseen 